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wolodymyr wrote in herdofcats
Realized this last week that my instinctive reaction to other people's physical pain - to be very frightened, objectifying, and avoidant - is actually my mother's reaction. It's like I'm acting out her reaction to me.

I totally need to chuck this, to find out what MY reaction is.

The additional problem is that that feels like a betrayal of my mother. I guess because moving on - having different kinds of relationships than the one I had with her - is an acknowledgment that the relationship I did have with her failed.

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